June

Here we are in the last day of June. It's 5:59 am for me. Which I know may now be early for some of you but is a little too early for me when my bedtime was around 11:30 pm last night.

It's been a full week. I had my Caffe Lena show on Thursday which just took a lot out of me. Before big gigs like that I always try to tell myself, "it's just like any other gig. I don't need to be this nervous." But really, it's not is it? There's a reason that room is famous. You're looking your audience directly in the eye and they are inches away from you. (Literally, as I was getting ready for that show and making my list of to-do's, I put "paint toenails" on it because the audience is so close they can see your toes and I swear one of the audience members did look at them at one point. So thank goodness I did paint them.) There is not experience like it. And there were so many new people in that room I had never met before. Which is nerve-wracking but also so exciting. It was just such a lovely night. Tiring, but so, so perfect. If you were there, thank you, thank you, THANK YOU. I already can't wait for the next one.

I've got a busy summer coming up. I'm so looking forward to it. This is the first year that I'm running purely on music-related income. Which has been exciting and stressful and interesting? I'm doing a smattering of a few different things, most of which I never would have seen coming had you told me a year ago this would be my life now. But I'm loving it. I said to JP the other day, if I won the lottery, I'd still continue doing all of the things I'm doing right now because I leave all of them feeling more full than when I went in. Which I know is so lucky of me because not most people get that feeling from their work.

​I'm playing some really great shows. Gigs I've wanted for a really long time but I think maybe, I can finally admit out-loud, I wasn't ready for yet. I'm learning that everything will happen in its time and its time is the right time. I've got the band now, we're fleshing these songs out in such a beautiful, careful way and I love it. When we hit the stage the other night, I hadn't played a full band show since January, and I got chills the moment they came in with me. 

I'm so unbelievably lucky to do this and that you all want to listen. It's still just. So shocking to me. Makes me feel like a million bucks. Hope to see you around this summer and that you're enjoying yours.

All my love,
​Angelina 🌿